if you didn’t know, I am a singer and it is great most of the time but sometimes, like everything else, it’s not the best thing ever.
i think that if i lost my voice then i would be really lost. singing is like talking for me, it is so natural and such a big part of my life. i feel like i am so lucky that i can at least hold a note.
some people get annoyed at me because i don’t think i am anything special musically but i guess I’m alright because of some of the things i have achieved. i guess what’s important is that I enjoy singing and other people enjoy my singing.
when people find out i am a singer, they usually ask me,
“ooo, when are you going on Xfactor?”
to that i reply “never.” writing my own music and singing pop music is something i find really difficult and not as enjoyable as some other things.
i love musical, some of my favourites are ‘Wicked” (of course) ‘Les Miserables’ and ‘Rent.’ the songs are mesmerising because of how they tell a story and are filled with passion and emotion and singing them just makes you feel.. i can’t put it into words really (was tempted to quote Billy Elliot but no.)
people tend to think that the hardest thing about performing is the size of the audience. however, i think large audiences aren’t as bad as they may seem. you’ve probably heard this from every singer you know but i would definitely feel better singing to 1000 people than 1. (which i have to do in my music exams.) i think the hardest audience I’ve ever sang to was at a family party where i sung my grandparent’s favourite song to them and around 50 other relatives.
i have been super lucky because my friends and family are always so supportive and i never know how i can thank them enough for everything they do for me. i know not everyone has family that show the kind of support that i receive and i am so grateful.
my singing teacher said something to me that sounds strange but is actually so true,
singers die on the inside.
this basically means that if a song is really difficult or painful to sing or if you’re having the worst day ever it’s important to remember that when you’re performing, as a singer, you are obliged to look confident and characterise the song and make it look like you’re enjoying yourself and like singing is easy and natural, otherwise it can be hard, as an audience member, to listen.
in the end, although the business is competitive and tiring and frustrating at times, being able to have a ‘Wicked’ marathon in the car with my Dad is the best thing. Also, singing in the shower without constant complaining. Although, technically you don’t need to be able to sing for either of those things. i guess that I’m just happy that i can make other people happy with something that i find so natural and that is also so rewarding and enjoyable.