autumn tag

Okay so it’s autumn, (i know, thanks for pointing that out) and i think this is one of my favourite times of the year. it kind of feels like this year, summer sort of switched into autumn in the space of a day, like one day we could wear shorts and crop tops and the next we were all getting out our warm sweaters and scarfs, i guess thats the uk for you. so anyway, ive decided to do the autumn tag so you can hear about some things that i love in the autumn time.

Favourite thing about autumn?

I love how things become a lot more cosy during autumn because you can wear big jumpers or scarves and you can start to get excited for winter and the arrival of christmas. when youve just walked home or been out somewhere and you feel really chilly, its great to come home and light some candles or get a warm drink and just relax.

Favourite drink?

In autumn, i drink a lot of hot chocolate, my personal favourite being the galaxy hot chocolate powder and i always use warm water and milk to make it just how i like it. for a special treat, i either get some squirty cream and have that on it with some of the chocolate powder dusted on top or maybe mix in a spoonful of nutella. however, on days when im not in the mood for chocolate, i really like decaff coffee to warm me up.

Favourite candle?

I dont personally light candles that often but we always seem to have one burning in the house to make it smell nice. however, recently we bought a candle that i just love and that is the glade limited edition candle in ‘winter white’. I know it’s kind of more wintery that autumnal but i certainly have been loving it. It is very clean and fresh but i think its also quite cosy at the same time.

Best lipstick?

i usually wear a nude coloured lipstick most of the time because of going to school and also because that is what i like to wear. for when i am going out in the autumn/winter time, i like to use darker colours like reds or purples. one of my favourites in the Rimmel Kate Moss lipstick in the shade 107.

Favourite band/singer?

In the autumn time, i like to listen to quite chilled out music. some of my favourite artists to listen to include the xx and Brooke Waggoner and i also enjoy some of the songs from the divergent soundtrack.

Favourite piece of autumn clothing?

This autumn i have been loving my leather jacket, i have worn it with nearly everything. I think they’re great because they keep you warm, theyre really comfortable and they go with almost everything.

Favourite place to be?

this question is kind of difficult but i just love being with my friends or family in autumn. because this season is so cosy, its great to be with the people you love when its dark out with blankets watching a film. I feel like this time of the year is the time where you feel the most loved and everything is festive and exciting.

I hope everyone has a great autumn because its such a cosy season but it doesnt seem to last as long as the others, which is kind of a shame but i guess it just gets us excited for next year.

it’s inevitable

this week, I suddenly became very aware of the inevitability of life. it is inevitable that I’m going to do my exams and that I’m going to have to get a job and then (hopefully a few decades after I get my first job) I will inevitably die.
even though life is unpredictable, it doesn’t stop moving forward for anyone. we have a very limited life and that life is spent being in education, then getting a job, then staying in that job until you are old enough to retire which is now at around the age of 70ish. I think it’s a shame that money is such an overbearing weight for most of the world and that means they can’t go out and do what they want to most.
how is it that you cannot live your life because of needing money to live it?
we are all lucky, there is always someone who’s having a worse day than us even though it may not feel like it. maybe you fell out with all of your friends and got dumped, I’m not gonna lie, that really sucks and I’m sorry, however, there is also a starving child somewhere on the brink of dying from malnutrition or someone suffering from cancer is taking a turn for the worst.
what makes life so scary is that sometimes we wish it to go faster, we hope the day will feel more like an hour and that friday will come straight after Monday. there are also times where time could never be slow enough.
something that scares me about inevitability is that there is no escaping it. it’s like we’re trapped. for example, you could be afraid of needles and you have to get a jab, you have no way out, there is no way that will not happen and you know that and that is what makes it so frightening.
I guess it’s a waste of time being afraid of inevitability because (and I say this because I can think of no better words) it is inevitable. there is no way of avoiding death and we can only accept that, although I’m not quite sure anyone really does, that’s okay though because you cannot fully accept something you know nothing about.
I don’t really know what the point of this blog post really was but I hope it has made some people think, I feel like to help some people become more aware of life slipping through their fingers the best way is to think about something like this.

making choices part 2

so the time is coming when people have to begin to choose what is next. for me, it’s a levels, and I need to pick four options. the scary thing is that after my two years of a levels, I’m going to have to make lots of crazy decisions and probably spend lotss of money.
even if you’re not making choices about anything to do with school or education, there are still lots of times when we’re forced into a situation when a decision has to be made.
we have to remember when making choices that things aren’t always narrow decisions and there are worlds of opportunities out there. we only have one life so we might as well spend it making ourselves happy because what kind of a life is one that is spent being stuck in a job you don’t want to be in. what is the point of having this life if we don’t take advantage of it?
never doubt something because your friends won’t be there, don’t choose an option for your GCSEs or a levels just because that’s the same as your friend. If you do that, there is a high probably you could really dislike the subject or even fail.
id like to point out that despite everything I’ve said about making choices to suit yourself and to make yourself happy, you should also make others happy because a life surrounded by happy people = a happy life.
I am a strong believer that there cannot be an afterlife because I have no proof to tell me otherwise and that means I also feel that should live life for what it is because we can’t all change the world we live in, we can only take advantage of the world we have and the privileges that we have. we can only live because the only other option is to die. in the end, it’s everyone’s individual choice as to whether we live our life to the full or just sit on the sidelines.

commitment

Okay, so lately i’ve had to think a bit more about the idea of commitment and dedicating yourself to something. in our everyday life, we commit to loads of things without even noticing, those things are usually like school, where …

Teenstar final!

so on the 19th of July i took part in the final of Teenstar, it was so nerve wracking and kind of intense but i thought it was just a really fun time.

the preparation for this round ended up being, by far, the most challenging. Choosing a song is probably the hardest thing there is in something like this but i decided to sing Jason Mraz- i won’t give up. this song, in my opinion, had such great potential and gave me an opportunity to make the song my own. however, i didn’t really anticipate the trouble it was going to cause.

in the weeks leading up to the competition, i was getting stressed out to say the least. singing pop is something that i find kind of challenging and i think the song got to me, it’s like every time i tried to sing it my throat would close up and it wouldn’t come out the way i wanted it to. i ended up just telling myself that i was being stupid and tricking myself into seeing it as a musical theatre song with a character and everything. it sounds strange but it actually happened and somehow it worked.

so on the day of Teenstar, i managed to go most of the day without the nerves hitting me. i don’t know what i was expecting, but this competition seemed a whole lot bigger when we first got there. the audience had grown, a lot, and apparently switching the way a room is laid out can make a whole lot of difference.

anyway, the competition was a lot of fun because we weren’t made to sit in the same room as the people performing like in other rounds. although it’s nice to enjoy the show, sitting through 17 amazing performances can really make the nerves set in. Everyone was really nice and I’m so glad i met all of those new people.

my performance wasn’t the best i had ever done but it was rewarding to sing through the whole song without having my throat close up and feeling like there is nothing i can do.

the winner definitely deserved 1st place, her original song was good enough to be the next hit single and she was really talented. although Teenstar was sometimes a pain, it was a worthwhile time and so I was so grateful for everyone who came to support.

here’s my performance:

my nan and grandads 50th anniversary :):)

so we went to my nan and grandads 50th wedding anniversary! this was a song that my uncle wrote for my nan and grandad….it was different x)

Our holiday adventure!

so yes, my family and I went on a little weekend away to Great Yarmouth which resulted in some first time vlogging. there are now two new videos on YouTube for you to enjoy just so you can see what …